jamming

my mom's definition of a musical jamming session...

a potluck dinner of sounds

:) !

a new today

On a day
when the wind is perfect,
the sail just needs to open
and the world is full of beauty.
Today is such a day.

~ Rumi



I am now officially a Doctor.
(of Information Science!)

And after my successful defense,
my chair said to me yesterday,
quoting his son in youth,
"You're a doctor now, just not the kind that helps people."

:)

The world is that much brighter now.

Today is a new day. :)

y por eso te amo cuando te amo.

uprising
fists solid arms long
uprising
heart open gaze steady
and strong

rise up brother
take my hand
we struggle together
rise up
there is fighting still to do
and the day is long

uprising
watch the sun
his solid beaming gaze
uprising
fall out of the pain

overcome
come over
we need you now
stay steady
fists open
take my hand
we rise together
rise up


(jan 13, 2012)

reflections on the experience of loving very very much

today

today my heart aches for you
and in so aching, my heart remembers the others too
who i have loved and lost

except that today i don't feel i've lost you
i just ache for your presence
for that laughter we've shared
that silent recognition we've known
that smile that seems to belong to us both

and in that remembering
my muscles are reliving it
re-experiencing it, that joy
of having found one another

and nothing is ever lost
if it had ever been
real

so today, dear far-away one,
i am laughing again with you
our smiles are once again the same
our hearts dance together
even within this vast space
our lives have come to know

please honor yourself, dear
please hold yourself close
please listen to the silent aching of your heart
let it draw you nearer to that which you love
most

in our long and dramatic journeys
towards G-d
we are rising up
and bound together by that gravity
so we shall meet again

and i will still love you
i will always love you
our smiles are still the same
and your key still unlocks something in my heart
may Allah bless us both forever

a prayer

thy light is revealed in darkness
majestic in silence art thou
in stillness, embrace envelopes me
oh lord, thou art mighty
and awesome thy love.
may i be forever in communion with thee
may i live fully within thy grace.

amen

on love

if i do love you, then i must love every atom, too, because you are in everything. i must love every space between atoms, because you are also there, and so i must love everything in this reality, and in every alternate reality, and in all of creation, because it is all from you. and then i must love everything outside of creation, because that is where your sunrise shines most brilliantly, the liquid gold beyond stories of this and that, relativity, birth and death. and if i do love you, then i must love each and any piece of experience that floats into my perception, and then i must learn to perceive beyond perception, in order to love also whatever is there, and all that is and ever has been. if i do love you, then i must love you, as fully as fullness itself, and only then will i be alive, will livingness flow through this being, and in that long moment of now, we will seize to maintain identity and --